Two years ago I learned more profoundly about meditation and law of attraction. Before that all the vision boards and visualizations were just like a day dream to me. Yes, I knew a bout NLP (neuro-linguistic programming), mindfulness and placebo-effect, but after learning about those new things I realized that I had used some of those techniques successfully in my early years without knowing it.

One thing that has disturbed me a lot during my life is the idea that it would be especially easy for me to learn things, that it is something that I was born with and I have just enjoyed the ride. But that is so far from the truth! I have studied and trained learning and memory, and I have found out the most efficient and easiest way for me to learn and memorize. We all have our own unique way, and it’s up to us to learn which ones is best for us. One of the keys for remembering new things is to be motivated. And there I have used the visualization. I have seen myself talking to strangers in a new language. I have thought how wonderful it is to be able to teach my children about animals, plants and nature. How I can make my own clothes that are unique and fit me perfectly. Whatever skill I’ve been training, I have enjoyed the possibility to practice that skill already while learning it, in my mind.

Last ten years have been full of struggle for me for doing everything alone, with minimum support from others. In a way the thing I miss most of those older days, it’s the happiness. The feeling that I will succeed, in a way or another, with the help from my loved ones if needed. When that idea was shown to be fake, I kind of lost the happiness and joy of doing things. I just tried to stay alive. At the same time I found it more challenging to learn new things, to succeed and to be determined.

Based on these experiences I can now see, that I needed a wake up call. Something that would bring me back the joy of life, mental strength and trust to people. I started few online courses on self development and mental training, and I could see some progress. I’m still on that road, but now it seems to be so much brighter and easier to navigate. There are still many blocks that are holding me back, but gradually I’m going forward. At the same time my doupts have become smaller and smaller, and my trust has become stronger and stronger. Most of all: I have refound my positive mindset. That I’m capable of doing anything I want and of learning to become so great in it.

Our mind is a powerful tool!

With love

Joana