Ever since the beginning of this year, I knew there will be a lot of changes in my life. Some of those I was expecting to happen, as my children have got older and they are finishing their schools one after another. Then there were the decisions that I made in order to change my life and aim into direction of my dreams. But in addition to those, there have been other changes, that I really didn’t see coming. And that’s the beauty of life.

In this year my youngest child graduated from the secondary school and got approved into the school of the next level together with the second youngest. There will be a moving into another town to live and study, but close enough for me to have an eye on their lives. Two older ones have already set their mind into the career they are willing to have. There’s only me left, who has so many possibilities open, that it keeps amazing me.

In January I decided to get back “the old me”, the one that had a smile and courage, will to change the world and faith in people. The old me also had control over her life, slept enough and ate healthy, met her friends and had her life balanced. Somewhere on the way it all became a survival game, and my health was a clear indicator of it. Now, 7 months after that decision, “a New Year’s Resolution” of ProjectFit23, I have lost almost 9 kilograms and there are 10 more to go, at least. But most importantly, I believe in me so much more. I have found the inspiration in dancing and training, which give so many health impacts. No more pain in lower back, better sleep and no graving to empty calories. I have a clear goal set to my future, a certain date in a calendar, and it makes it easier to keep up with activities.

I still have no idea, where I will end up in my life, but the road there is interesting and amazing. I’m aiming at the dreams I had earlier in my life, but so many other beautiful things have emerged too. Eleven years ago I announced that my home is not here, but I still remained where I was for the sake of my children. It seemed to slowly kill me inside. But now it looks like it didn’t really kill my spirit but was simply a hatching period. The world hasn’t seen the butterfly in it’s full colors yet. Slowly it’s getting out of the cocoon, cautiously, as the wings are not ready yet. But it’s something that the sunshine will do. Time will tell 🙂

With love
Joana